Chronicles of an Extraordinary Fool

heyo readers, been some time since i was hear and i guess i have missed you guys more (although you people never reply or give any feedback). its like one of those talks i have with my own self sometimes where my voice of reason is the only one who replies and i end up without an outsiders perspective.        Anyways, i decided to bid a farewell to the time the time that was. THIS NOTE WILL HAVE MY EXPERIENCES, FEELINGS AND THE PEOPLE I HAVE MET.       Here goes, in the earliest of months there was nothing new except for my new hair cut that i got and it only held its shine for the first day the second day it was pretty much back to normal, so that happened. the rest of the months went kinda uneventful and were pretty much stagnant. It so happened in the month of april that i fell in love (that hadnt happen from a long time now). that little love story came to an abrupt and sad end but, then again all love stories end on a sad note no matter how happy either of them are. Later, in

Fair warning this post is dedicated to one Latika Sachdeva on the occasion of her birthday, tread softly coz she is a sweetheart. So, how are ya lattu,i sincerely wish you the happiest of birthdays, may god bless you and may you never fall short of the things to make you happy. Now throw away the sincerity               its amazing to see such a person who has this aura of happiness around her, i never fail to smile when you are out and about (i smile wiase bhi but you get the gist right?) i still remember the first time you came to class with those big-ass glasses on and a pony that looked like a fountain sprite. You uttered the words " Tu akele kyun baitha rehta hai", I was listening to music but, now you have your wish i dont really sit alone. Baaki teri hassi is LOL, kisi aur cheez se naa sahi teri hassi se hassi aa jati hai.              So, i'll be selfish and wish that you stay smiling beautiful, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! P.S. you recognized me from my accent, wel

hello people,                     Been long enough since I wrote something here, guess I have been occupied. Well, here i am with the most recent chronicle of this extraordinary fool. On 9th June 2012, I was in a terrible accident, the kind that fractured my upper left arm and doctors had to implant a nail to hold my bone together so it heals itself and returns to its regular self. The date was the 29th of September 2014, I was excited about my surgery. I had been planning for it for two months steeling my mind for the aftermath. The day had finally arrived, I remember stepping into the bright reception hall, where the ceiling was on the 8th floor. A small Cafe stall right next to the entrance with a pharmacy shop right next to it. The other side of the hall had a different view entirely, it was a number of stalls placed one after the other and had the words etched into the " Billing Counters". The bedlam created by those mundane ringing of telephones seemed fascinating to

Hey how are you all?  So, it struck to me pretty recently that i dont write often enough and i kinda know the reason. But, lemme focus on the days events. It has been a bumpy ride into the second year of the college and I guess I am enjoying college more. I go to my classes and I get to boss around too (what more can you ask for ??).      Today, I chose to accompany two of my friends for the promotional video of our event to be made, as it turns out it was a complete bummer. We started our journey back to college and came face to face with a sucky fact that we could not hitch any ride when our savior came riding on a shimmering white pegasus and offered us help. It was a fellow batchmate who had showed up with a white activa and offered us a lift. We complied to the offer and chose to ride with him.     Here was the adventure, it was 4 of us on one activa which was driven carelessly enough to give a sound person a heart attack, god only knows what held us in the balance of life but th

heyo this one is as its title says a mix and match of a few things. First, i caught up with a friend, and it was lovely although i have lost a particular fragment of her memory, i dont remember her laugh, funny thing to forget though but i cant remember the way she used to laugh although i do remember an incident where she cried, i caught a glimpse of her fleeting and that is a prominent memory that i remember and to that a friend of her who was walking behind packed up her things and uttered "stupid indians". That is one memory that survives. Second, i have seen one of the most gorgeous girls of the world, she is literally breathtakingly beautiful. No, i am not in love but you really dont need a lovers eyes to admire her, it just comes naturally. She doesnt hold a mask of beauty but is indeed a beautiful person inside, trust me i know her a bit. Third and last i dont know if i have written the gibberish above in my senses or not, just wanted it out 

Been troubled by this one word for quite some time and I bet my sexy ass that fate holds something in future where I would want the same I won't get it. But coming onto the matters of now I really don't see myself inclined towards the docile concept of forgiveness. I am getting a no. Of chances where I get to forgive people and I am in defiance. I don't know if I am falling as low as the offenders ? Seems like I don't care I prefer to be like this. Seems to make my life easier, no complications, no 2-faced person etc.. Its funny how people think that resolving things makes everything ok. A famous saint of india ( India is known for that isn't it?) said "Rahiman dhaaga prem ka mat todo chattkaye, tute toh phir na jude-e, jude-e gaanth pad jaaye. Meaning O man, don't stretch the string of the bond of love so far that it breaks, if broken it is never the same even if tied. So I dare question the fact that is it OK to break the bond at your will

Hey readers How is life guys ?? There has been a substantial decrease in my episodes of overwhelming emotions. Now a days its just the good old me and that too a happy one but (There is always a butt), traveling still has that un-altering effect. When you see the trees running by, showing you the path you travel on, treading under a sky that looked exactly like it did while an incident happened in your life. It is amazing how familiar threads in the web of memory tangle and there is a impalpable desire to untangle it. I had the pleasure to travel the same way that I used to while I was studying at my university in punjab and the threads that I managed to pluck on were pretty crazy. The first day at the place The first friends I made The foreign teachers I had The amount of work I used to do (I should've been paid for all that) The first love of the university The bonds that I formed. So you know the tendency of the human mind about how it sees the doom and glo

Hello readers. How are you all? It has been some time since I had this kind of flood of emotions again. This time it literally is what the topic says . I CANNOT RECOGNIZE MYSELF. The guy who was usually referee to as a week, caring, thoughtful, I am looking at him in the rear view mirror.   I abused someone today I shouldn't have but I guess I reached my breaking poin.you know how  before any confrontation a script runs in your head ..?  Well mine went something like this I have lost every shred of respect I had for you, you have managed to hurt me to an extent where I have to abuse you.you bear no more importance to me and I would be happy if you died because you existence is not doing anyone any good. I dong know from where did all this came from but, there is more to this . I don't know for sure if I did but I think I hurt someone and I don't feel guilty about it, maybe because of the recent activities but doesn't that make me a horrible person?? I had recently

hey how are you guys and girls ? well guess you are good and this one is just a random note .. does not end with an epiphany or some teaching (not that i usually do that).      so on 30th april 2014 i bid my seniors farewell, of many i wasnt in contact with many hell i barely knew a handful of em. So i guess its obvious i did not have much emotional attachment there but yea i guess i will miss seeing them around with those warm greetings, gonna miss  +Kashish Sharma   although he isnt around much anyway but you know i'll miss him the most coz he is my neighbour :P. Then i will miss a few others like  +Garima Batra  ,  +Sakshi Arora  ,  +Anish Grover  ,  +Varun Tyagi  ,  +Kanik Thakur  , @indepal , @aditya nair ,  +Somali Bajpai  ,  +ritika dhingra  , @sahiba sabbarwal,  +Chirantan Khastgir  ,  +Agney Mulay  , +Pushkar Hans   and many more. so guess a farewell to them and good luck to them for their future.     so it brings me to today, it was to my surprise when a teacher asked m

Hello readers ,          How is it hanging?? Well today i guess i spent the most awesome day of my life until now. I cannot indulge you in any details coz that will be like screwing your day over (trust me it was that awesome).        I am here to write the note regardless so i guess i bring you the learning of the day. It is not very often that we get what we want from the life. In a book called "The Secret" the author explained how the universe works in relation to our thought process. When we think of things we picture it happening, like you want to eat a chocolate, now in your mind you will picture yourself eating a chocolate. The universe will take that image into account and will eventually deliver according to how strong your want is. This applies as a disadvantage too, thinking about not falling while riding a bicycle makes you picture yourself falling off the bike and thus fear becomes stronger and stronger till you fall. So, in short the universe does not different

Heyo readers,         Its been a while since i wrote my emotions and this is because you all got a competitor to whom i tell my feelings instead of indulging you guys. I am back here because i wanted to share this one with you all. I have recently learned that it does take loss for one to become expressive in one way or the other and to us (i cant say teenager any more) love is the usual loss or so we believe.        Today, i wont talk of love. well, i will try not to talk about love. The name of the note is so because i dont remember what was the last feeling i held within me. Everything is hysterical to me, no matter what it is. It is said to be a fool's trait who blurts out everything without thinking of the consequences. Guess i knew that for long enough thus the "extraordinary fool". Well, forgive me for i am not a man of my word, so coming back to my favourite topic LOVE. It has been sometime since i gave this advice to a friend "speak your mind". This pa

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Ever felt a warm glow, ever wondered where it might take you in its flow. there is a certain calm in this journey under your shade, amongst my ambitions i lost sight of what would be the ramifications each step i was timid, each time i only tried to be rigid forgive me now for i still dont know how, to keep you happy, for it just seemed easy and sappy. Don't know much about love, i understand it now i was always too selfish for i never knew how. i realized it yesterday what i might be feeling today, could it be love, i can't seem to push you away. no matter how hard i fought it, she just never bought it, her simple okay was quiet evident the sudden drawl was not so reluctant, the simple "ok", turned heavy and many syllables strode down to long, unwanted decent. i could sense her heavy voice i couldn't hear among the noise, for defeating this devilish love i tried to see the angels of reason up above, i tried to push her away but i never noticed that i went into

heyo readers A very big thank you to you all for my blog has crossed the 1000 hit mark. Although this is my first immature attempt at writing and hope you guys have liked it (do tell me if you havent because then i would have to correct it) So now i would like to take a walk down the memory lane.. wait im not gonna do that .. might as well walk you through some selective or as i call em "Frivolous thoughts" 1. It has been over a year since i have been brushing up my graphology skills and it is now a habit that i tend to read any handwriting that lies in my field of vision. I have done an analysis of the whole class except of one certain individual and she keeps on denying my offer to examine her handwriting, and this has led to me thinking that maybe there is something that she wants to hide. For all those who dont know it yet "CURIOSITY IS A BITCH" 2.I got a little movie (short film) to be shot tomorrow and i was trying to get the cast ready when a certain act

hey readers, how are you all ? In India there is a saying " उपर वाला जब भी देता है, छप्पर फ़ाड कर देता है " meaning that, when ever the god wishes to give, he gives with generosity . Similar case here, i was fed up from my phone, i had a small hTC explorer and by god i hated that son of a B.. really bad. The size of it was one problem the next was the low internal memory and the slow processor was the "cherry on top".          well so first i got a Moto G from my mom, and i gotta tell you that its a good phone .. and the functions are user friendly. Next thing was the finding of love .. you have no idea how it would feel when you have no single reason to worry about the one you love .. well i have felt it and it feels awesome.          Then, i went to Rajouri Garden (its a place in delhi), and i decided to go to the "City Square" mall and went to its topmost floor and got myself a bite to eat. so turns out chilly potatoes there are nice. so coming onto t

heyo people... hows it hangin ??  well i wanted to write today in particular because a thought has struck my mind and he wants out. so here goes. Today i have had an epiphany (for those who dont know what an epiphany is .. go check the dictionary) so the sudden realization of the great truth was that today alone i felt sad. Now i know i shouldn't have felt so because i was the one pushing her away trying to save her the trouble of I, ME and MYSELF but, i felt as if no air in my lungs and no light was caught by my eyes, because the one thing i looked for was nowhere to be found. You must think what a messed up guy, cant he make up his mind.. but let me assure you im not on the verge of total insanity yet. i should be happy that i finally got what i wished for but here i am still sulking, you know what i think i cared when she talked to me, when she used to tell me about her day, when she used to flick away those hair only so i could see her face. Well thats that, I know now that no

Heyo everyone,                      today i got to sleep 10 minutes more than usual time. YAY!!!!!  Well, Its another story entirely that it delayed my overall schedule but, it was fun in the monotonous routine. So,  got to my college at my usual time (which is 40 minutes before the college starts #drag) and was sitting in my college's cafeteria when, a thought struck my mind( there has been a lot of that going around). you all might know how i was supposedly in love then, thought it to be just a #FalseAlarm well,as it turns out "It was and It wasnt". Dubious ?? let me explain.. you might know how first love feels like..? well if you dont then take this as only a foot note or something you can learn something from.                  That feeling of first love is downright awesome!!! Its like watching ripples in a calm lake, listening to birds chirp their songs, the sun trying to take a peek in the night..(oh yea!! love does that to you no matter how girlish it may sou

Happy today- something is different well,then comes the "Personal Influence Theory" into play . I just remembered that, yesterday evening it was 2 friends teasing me about Her. I guess the influence of their meaningless and vain chatter has set in. Since morning i am listening to the heart warming, life affirming and stupid love songs, to be honest its just one in particular "Ishq Bulava" an OST of Bollywood movie "Hasee Toh Phasee". A movie in which the leading hero falls for his fiancee's sister who was banished from the family. So I guess the concept of 'Forbidden Love' is in motion here. Trust me im not the kind to fight even for my limitations. It so happened during the class that our lecturer was teaching and I out of habit of being an insufferable know it all completed his sentence with a peculiar word "BELOVED" while it was to be friends and colleagues (i so wanted to shoot myself that i uttered something and that too under t

The excitement of first love was overwhelming but then again guess im not mature at all and i got the wandering heart syndrome( #made up disease). I got to thinking that if I love this girl shouldnt i put her first, shouldnt i care for her like hell, shouldnt i be hers but im not ... I kinda got thinking over it yesterday, a whole day i didnt talk to her properly and nothing no feeling of guilt came upon me and i realized it then and there that i had to tell her that i dont love her but merely infatuated to her, she is one of those beautiful girls who can be surprisingly cute and charmingly stunning at the same time and i played the timid guy before telling her about what i felt but, the thought of hurting her later down the road. So, today i backed out i retaliated from the situation so as to avoid any further contempt. No matter how hard i thought about it i couldnt reach an alternate conclusion. Out of the few things that have been constantly taught to me is that never break what y

   I think its funny to such little and puny things and relate them to something as great as "Life" but, then again it takes a droplet to make a lake into an ocean (well u get the analogy right). So, here is another one of mine (another droplet into my lake of life because im 21 only).    I was sitting idle and had nothing on my mind (trust  me it was literally nothing) when, i tissue paper in my bag caught my eye while, i was getting a hold of my water-bottle. I picked it up and started thinking about what i could do to it and then a childhood craft lesson came dashing into my mind but, it wasn't random because when i thought about it later on, it was because of a simple yet complex association, the association of Valentines Day. Its a day celebrated for love and as you all might know there is a series of days that come before this day and one of these many days is the rose day. So, i thought of that crafty skill that i was taught years back and put it to use. I made a

Hey guys and gals ..  (i felt kinda stupid saying guys and gals :P )  so today i had an exam "Introduction To Communication"  you know how you have to fill out the OMR sheets in university examinations well i know and it wasnt any trouble until today when due to some unknown reason my hands wouldnt work as commanded and were going berserk.Regardless, i took to filling the said OMR sheet and then it happened (there are not supposed to be any form of mistakes nay any form even stray marks on the sheet) i darkened a wrong circle and called out to the teacher Me:Sir! there is a little mistake that i have committed. (trying to sound calm)Teacher:this aint little you daft fool this is a mistake that cannot be corrected.Total sadness all around the room perhaps, because i was the only one there at the moment. I being a genius took an eraser and started erasing and voila the problem was solved, i could get along with the rest of the procedure and start my exam. The exam ended by

im here again because im troubled and this time too the problem is the same as before, you know recently enough i have started to feel infatuated and obsessed with someone, i talked to her on a phone call and guess what the ear didnt hurt, i dont really get it that why would i get into the same scenario again and again when i know that i will be the incapable one to sustain it any further. i was a good kid back in school i was humble, respectful and one of the most nicest kinds of friend. This would probably feel like im boasting but i was always there to offer help to friends, to teachers, never was i into any fights (its not hard to believe even now) and was never known for any form of indiscipline. Many would say that i hadnt enjoyed my school time as much as i could have i had not been what i was but, i am proud of what i was i was recently remembered by a friend and she felt so happy while talking to me on the phone and she uttered the words " everyone has changed so much

hey ..i have been moost recently introduced to this new phenomenon.  it is quite an eyeopener that i was struck upon this little yet grave problem.i dont like to talk much my school frends know about this (#sarcasm) (joke of the century. Neverthless, i havent taken up talking too much in my new college and i seem to enjoy myself regardless. it took me about 2 weeks till i judged almost everyone for what they are, i mean like i got party animals, people that are friendly, people that are introverts and extroverts, seen shy people and a couple of loudmouths. i have already formed this perception about many and it seemed an easy job for studying them was quite an intresting job , you know like observing (believe i have learnt quite a bit) but, now it seems i didnt see them at all. i made a mistake, i judged a book by its cover and dont know anymore if i know anyone at all .seems like me trying to stay off of them kept them away so much that i never got to know them, only a faint sha

ts been a few months since i have felt any infatuation  since i have felt that yes .. i am in love .. its quiet sad .. that it takes that feeling to think enough to write my own thoughts... aaj mann hai phir kisi k pyaar mein padne ki, aaj zaroorat hai phir kisi k liye dil leke girne ki.  woh zehr peena hai phir ek baar..   woh yaar laado phir se mujhe pyaar,  woh aankhe jinme saari kaynaat dikh jaye , woh muskurahat jisme hum mit jaye,  dard bhi hai hazaaron ki koi hai nahi, sukoon ka katraa toh mijaye,  kya sochti hai yeh soch ki galiyaan .. kyun lagti nahi pyari ab phoolon ki kaliyan..., aaj rukh mud jataa hai un gum ke bazaaron ko, kabhi dil cheekhta hai  pukaarta hai dil k khareedaron ko .. kehte hai dil-on k dukaandaar bohot hai  kehte hai dil-on k sahukaar bohot hai .. bas naaseeb uss ek raqeeb ko dhoonta hai  jo baant sake ye dard kuch aur kataaron ko  and i choose to contradict that i require any infatuation

its been quite some time since something struck this head of mine ..and  thought i should express this one thought that has been just strolling in my extremely excited brain it started about 4 days back . its is pretty humane to feel a rush of excitement and i am quite human so i get excited a lot . I remember that when i was a kid we used to travel to Punjab in trains and no matter how bad the ride was gonna be (i ended up sick after most of em ) but i was never able to sleep the night before the journey . The path was always the same old monotonous one and so was the interior but, it never thwarted that excitement . Gradually i became older and lost this excitement . There are always some feelings in life which are forgotten because they get suppressed to extreme . Exempli gratia that feeling of enjoying a lolly pop .. how many of you readers remember it ... ?                                #Gotcha ...  anyways so coming back to the topic at hand "

heyo  how are you guys   so this one is regarding my recent activity ... i posted an idiotic status just for fun and got i dont know what kind of replies .. well let me bore you from the beginning  ..  it was a really pleasant Thursday morning .. the sky was just white .. patched with grey clouds .. you just know how that weather makes you feel ..makes every breath so fresh to inhale .. makes ever gush of wind all the more special and you just open your arms, the smile that it puts on your face , the jump it let's in in your dull pace ...   you just wanna shout out loud .. no matter who hears it ... the feeling is downright amazing  well i was in the middle of when the mischief stuck my mind ..  i just wanted to say that " i wanna fall in love" the follow up was only a joke .. but it was that day when i realized then, that only friends understand .. the rest will always misunderstand ... Bhavul took it right .. he understood then and there that

heyo ... Perhaps i was wrong ... maybe this need to write just doesnt thrive on the feeling of love or any such problem ... its just the feeling of being that makes me write these notes ... so been sometime since i have been told by an astrologer that i will be sensitive (emotionally) for 10 years , long time .. well 2010 was the beginning of it and 2020 will be the supposed end of it .. so been thinking on how can i become emotional all of a sudden .. and then it hit me .. i have been writing since 2010 only , been noticing little details since then only ..  so conclusion i twisted something in order to fit something ... but yea while the topic is at hand i suddenly lack empathy for others and started taking care of my own self ..  i supposedly won "the most compassionate Mira-ite" award (i saw the name on the trophy just a few weeks back and got it that it was a title given to me only .. although i have no memory of getting it ).. so that com

here are moments in one's life when they get to choose...  like to choose if they want a bicycle or a video game , choose whether to ask for a basket ball or a football , choose if a mobile would be better or a computer ..  Life is an endless chain of choices ..  choices that we make and choices that are imposed on us .  I wanna know which one makes you more happier . the one that you made yourself or the one that was imposed on you . I have never been in such a dilemma and never planned to be in any in my near future ... but   guess the near future boat has sailed and i guess its abt time i choose ... scratched my head all night .. guess i have been discouraged in every aspect of life, been questioned at every step of life so much that my ability to make decisions has been stripped off of me  ...Im sure everyone wants whats best for me but i guess im now a being who thrives on decisions made by others . The stark desire to end this life came over last night .

heyo ppl... guess i have ran out of stories .. .. but no matter .. got something to say .. , i want something to be shared , want something to be heard .. Its quite surprising to me .. but yes .. i want it all to happen again ... to go back to the childhood , to feel the rain ... to shout out a friends name, standing under the burning sun  and calling him out to play , that "red letter", that game of "cricket", the stupid "hide and seek", the tiring game of "tag" . go back into the time where .. i did not differenciate .. neither caste nor religon , when love was another "yucky" something and friendship was all that i knew.. a time when my lunch was eaten by my former friends before i had a chance at it.. would love to jump in the puddle again , would love a game of basket ball again, would love to love again ... alas time has its on repurcussions .. all the love stories i have ever had were meaning less and it kept ha

i know i shouldn't be posting this but i guess its about time i do let it out .. after all we have to let go if we need to move on . so here is the juice .. i met .. oh sorry " saw " this magnificent creature on 8th of august 2011...  it " wasn't " a love at first sight.. believe me... because back then she was holding back but  yea she looked beautiful in her own way .. the kind whose presence would be an overwhelming calm,  whose presence would be teamed with serenity .. it was amazing because  i kept looking back at her she sat in my ENG 123 second row and 4th seat..  hair tied back into a bun and looking at our teacher as he was asking for introductions..   well that was my highlight of the day ..  first day of college came down to second on the list ..  first was seeing her . Now people usually go crazy about love of their life ( at that particular time ) and, i was crazy too messaging her on facebook now and then .  I felt back

heyo ..    Well i was troubled and gave it a tad too much thought but it is truly said that  "An empty mind is devil's workshop" been some days since i have been craving the need to meet a friend.. but  i have been suppressing it  and im not sure if that is a reason to my current situation .  So it was recently brought to my notice that the music we like at a certain timeline is basically  because the music provides us with the emotional stimulus that our brain requires . I commented so on a teacher's status and got a reply " hmm" . Now, i don't know if that was a  yes or maybe .. but i know that it wasn't a no. so i have been listening to music  love songs, dub-step, rock and metal :P and god know what ...!!  but anyways here is the psychoanalysis  i think i am getting aggressive .. i feel like angry all the time and as i have been pointed out by my dad   i seem to be restless and impulsive any guess what could be the reason ..