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Hey guys and gals .. 
(i felt kinda stupid saying guys and gals :P )  so today i had an exam "Introduction To Communication"  you know how you have to fill out the OMR sheets in university examinations well i know and it wasnt any trouble until today when due to some unknown reason my hands wouldnt work as commanded and were going berserk.Regardless, i took to filling the said OMR sheet and then it happened (there are not supposed to be any form of mistakes nay any form even stray marks on the sheet) i darkened a wrong circle and called out to the teacher Me:Sir! there is a little mistake that i have committed. (trying to sound calm)Teacher:this aint little you daft fool this is a mistake that cannot be corrected.Total sadness all around the room perhaps, because i was the only one there at the moment. I being a genius took an eraser and started erasing and voila the problem was solved, i could get along with the rest of the procedure and start my exam. The exam ended by 5 and i finished by then too, walked out with head held high proud of my self that there was one exam among the 4 that i knew perfectly well, so i exited the building and went on to collect my bad from a friend's car whom i had given it for safekeeping. we were all socializing discussing how bad or good the exam was and would we pass or fail in the said exam. well during the talk i was reminded of my phone and that struck me as a bolt of lightning " damn!! i left my phone in the examination hall "i ran and found the invigilator at the entrance only and god bless him for he handed it over to me saying i should keep a track of my belongings.That one line hurled me into a sea of thoughts particular to belonging ...what do you think is your belonging friends, book, a pencil, those shoes well i think not nothing is our belonging until it feels so. (now thats a beautiful thought) and then came along what we usually call disappointment .it is not in my nature to make friends any more and its quite deteriorating for one's mind as in one of my earlier writings i mentioned that it is necessary for a person to have friends. I was heading home and standing due to the fact that a friend was lagging and i was waiting for her to catch up when this happened. i may not be very friendly but by god one thing that i have not been all my life is that self centered bastard who regards people with any sort of disrespect and i barely think i deserve the same from anyone. It so happened that a stranger (perhaps calling this one a friend might be hurtful) looks at me makes eye contact and passes by whom i had pull back just to say hi. Forgive me if i have ever been like this to you but i guess its best for me to stop bothering you after all im so good at it.
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