The excitement of first love was overwhelming but then again guess im not mature at all and i got the wandering heart syndrome( #made up disease). I got to thinking that if I love this girl shouldnt i put her first, shouldnt i care for her like hell, shouldnt i be hers but im not ... I kinda got thinking over it yesterday, a whole day i didnt talk to her properly and nothing no feeling of guilt came upon me and i realized it then and there that i had to tell her that i dont love her but merely infatuated to her, she is one of those beautiful girls who can be surprisingly cute and charmingly stunning at the same time and i played the timid guy before telling her about what i felt but, the thought of hurting her later down the road. So, today i backed out i retaliated from the situation so as to avoid any further contempt. No matter how hard i thought about it i couldnt reach an alternate conclusion. Out of the few things that have been constantly taught to me is that never break what you cant mend, never take what you cant give and never be what you cant uphold.
heyo ... Perhaps i was wrong ... maybe this need to write just doesnt thrive on the feeling of love or any such problem ... its just the feeling of being that makes me write these notes ... so been sometime since i have been told by an astrologer that i will be sensitive (emotionally) for 10 years , long time .. well 2010 was the beginning of it and 2020 will be the supposed end of it .. so been thinking on how can i become emotional all of a sudden .. and then it hit me .. i have been writing since 2010 only , been noticing little details since then only .. so conclusion i twisted something in order to fit something ... but yea while the topic is at hand i suddenly lack empathy for others and started taking care of my own self .. i supposedly won "the most compassionate Mira-ite" award (i saw the name on the trophy just a few weeks back and got it that it was a title given to me only .. although i have no memory of getting it ).. so that com...
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