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Dark in Our Light

hey ..i have been moost recently introduced to this new phenomenon. 
it is quite an eyeopener that i was struck upon this little yet grave problem.i dont like to talk much my school frends know about this (#sarcasm) (joke of the century. Neverthless, i havent taken up talking too much in my new college and i seem to enjoy myself regardless. it took me about 2 weeks till i judged almost everyone for what they are, i mean like i got party animals, people that are friendly, people that are introverts and extroverts, seen shy people and a couple of loudmouths. i have already formed this perception about many and it seemed an easy job for studying them was quite an intresting job , you know like observing (believe i have learnt quite a bit) but, now it seems i didnt see them at all.
i made a mistake, i judged a book by its cover and dont know anymore if i know anyone at all .seems like me trying to stay off of them kept them away so much that i never got to know them, only a faint shadow of them survives and it has led to these false interpretations.i was doing nothing, sitting idle and was hoping someone might showup for a chat but noone did and i started to look at things browse through whatsapp and there it was.i nooticed this curiious ittle profile picture that was quite #wise in its wake , i enquired him that why this perticular picture he was too tired to make up a story or so it seemed that he blurted out the truth that he has had his fair share of hurt, nt that guy was the most jovial i knew, most happy and friendly person i have met and  i didnt seem fair, how can someone who has such a positive viewpoint be in such an overwhelming pain that he has to hide it behind a smile, some you just know have had their sorrows but with some it just is incomprehensible. Next up was a old friend and she must have been the sweetest .. so sweet that her smile alone can coz you diabetes, anyways cheesiness apart - she had this status that was so depressing, i being me asked her what it was about and she said that "hota hai yaar" and that was it another blow to the bubble that those who keep others happy tend to stay happy . I questioned myself then and there  "did i live in a perfect world where good remains good and bad remains bad " and then eienstien dropped in and said in loud words " EVERY ACTION HAS AN EQUAL AND OPPOSITE REACTION " and i was into an abyss of these thoughts since then.
i still dont know wat to ask or say and one more thing i strongly believe in karma so theory says "we get the fuits of our sowing " so does the fruit has to be bitter if only happness is sowed ?? It is a daunting dark that follows the light  i pry and i pray,for light is just dark today  

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