heyo people...
hows it hangin ??
well i wanted to write today in particular because a thought has struck my mind and he wants out. so here goes.
Today i have had an epiphany (for those who dont know what an epiphany is .. go check the dictionary) so the sudden realization of the great truth was that today alone i felt sad. Now i know i shouldn't have felt so because i was the one pushing her away trying to save her the trouble of I, ME and MYSELF but, i felt as if no air in my lungs and no light was caught by my eyes, because the one thing i looked for was nowhere to be found. You must think what a messed up guy, cant he make up his mind.. but let me assure you im not on the verge of total insanity yet. i should be happy that i finally got what i wished for but here i am still sulking, you know what i think i cared when she talked to me, when she used to tell me about her day, when she used to flick away those hair only so i could see her face. Well thats that, I know now that no matter what i feel i must not tell her that i love her because this is not the simple like for sure because if it was so then i must be jealous of the guys who were making her smile but, i actually felt happy about it, i was delighted that she was smiling. Is it love ?? tell me so i'll make sure not to tell her.. Shh...
hows it hangin ??
well i wanted to write today in particular because a thought has struck my mind and he wants out. so here goes.
Today i have had an epiphany (for those who dont know what an epiphany is .. go check the dictionary) so the sudden realization of the great truth was that today alone i felt sad. Now i know i shouldn't have felt so because i was the one pushing her away trying to save her the trouble of I, ME and MYSELF but, i felt as if no air in my lungs and no light was caught by my eyes, because the one thing i looked for was nowhere to be found. You must think what a messed up guy, cant he make up his mind.. but let me assure you im not on the verge of total insanity yet. i should be happy that i finally got what i wished for but here i am still sulking, you know what i think i cared when she talked to me, when she used to tell me about her day, when she used to flick away those hair only so i could see her face. Well thats that, I know now that no matter what i feel i must not tell her that i love her because this is not the simple like for sure because if it was so then i must be jealous of the guys who were making her smile but, i actually felt happy about it, i was delighted that she was smiling. Is it love ?? tell me so i'll make sure not to tell her.. Shh...
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