Happy today- something is different well,then comes the "Personal Influence Theory" into play . I just remembered that, yesterday evening it was 2 friends teasing me about Her. I guess the influence of their meaningless and vain chatter has set in. Since morning i am listening to the heart warming, life affirming and stupid love songs, to be honest its just one in particular "Ishq Bulava" an OST of Bollywood movie "Hasee Toh Phasee". A movie in which the leading hero falls for his fiancee's sister who was banished from the family. So I guess the concept of 'Forbidden Love' is in motion here. Trust me im not the kind to fight even for my limitations. It so happened during the class that our lecturer was teaching and I out of habit of being an insufferable know it all completed his sentence with a peculiar word "BELOVED" while it was to be friends and colleagues (i so wanted to shoot myself that i uttered something and that too under the influence of love or just a feeling of it). Another anomaly I noticed that, I haven't been bitten by a vampire, werewolf or radio-active insects lately (trust me i checked) but, i dont see myself as the same old Mohit rather, I see myself as a strong and responsible person, someone strong enough to protect her and responsible enough to hold her. I have started to feel good about this feeling (earlier it was just a lot of self loathing) and I know why it is so. It is because those 2 idiots taunted me a lot about me not changing relationships and frankly speaking, it doesn't matter much to me. I have witnessed the feeling of making people cry, making loved ones cry and im not ready to make Her cry ever.
Heyo readers, Its been a while since i wrote my emotions and this is because you all got a competitor to whom i tell my feelings instead of indulging you guys. I am back here because i wanted to share this one with you all. I have recently learned that it does take loss for one to become expressive in one way or the other and to us (i cant say teenager any more) love is the usual loss or so we believe. Today, i wont talk of love. well, i will try not to talk about love. The name of the note is so because i dont remember what was the last feeling i held within me. Everything is hysterical to me, no matter what it is. It is said to be a fool's trait who blurts out everything without thinking of the consequences. Guess i knew that for long enough thus the "extraordinary fool". Well, forgive me for i am not a man of my word, so coming back to my favourite topic LOVE. It has been sometime since i gave this advice to a friend "speak your...
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