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Ever felt a warm glow, ever wondered where it might take you in its flow.
there is a certain calm in this journey under your shade,
amongst my ambitions i lost sight of what would be the ramifications
each step i was timid, each time i only tried to be rigid
forgive me now for i still dont know how,
to keep you happy, for it just seemed easy and sappy.
Don't know much about love, i understand it now
i was always too selfish for i never knew how.
i realized it yesterday what i might be feeling today,
could it be love, i can't seem to push you away.
no matter how hard i fought it, she just never bought it,
her simple okay was quiet evident
the sudden drawl was not so reluctant,
the simple "ok", turned heavy
and many syllables strode down to long, unwanted decent.
i could sense her heavy voice i couldn't hear among the noise,
for defeating this devilish love i tried to see the angels of reason up above,
i tried to push her away but i never noticed that i went into the sway.
i still say im not in love, i still deny its call from above
its reasons dont agree with me and my decisions dont comply to me
sorry i played this game with you, my heart is kept aside and i like you unequally .. I really do
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