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The Unrecognizable

Hello readers.
How are you all?
It has been some time since I had this kind of flood of emotions again. This time it literally is what the topic says . I CANNOT RECOGNIZE MYSELF. The guy who was usually referee to as a week, caring, thoughtful, I am looking at him in the rear view mirror.   I abused someone today I shouldn't have but I guess I reached my breaking poin.you know how  before any confrontation a script runs in your head ..?
 Well mine went something like this I have lost every shred of respect I had for you, you have managed to hurt me to an extent where I have to abuse you.you bear no more importance to me and I would be happy if you died because you existence is not doing anyone any good.
I dong know from where did all this came from but, there is more to this . I don't know for sure if I did but I think I hurt someone and I don't feel guilty about it, maybe because of the recent activities but doesn't that make me a horrible person??
I had recently come across an epiphany that "A man consumed by "My" in the present has no "US" in his/her future. I know someone who is suffering at the dire hand of ME  in her old age, I know a scape goat who is ready to meet a similar fate. The worst part I am on the same path.
WHO IS THIS ..??

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