Strength

so anyways .. yesterday was quiet a fun day ... enjoyed a b'day party, met my maternal  relatives (again) .

so i was sitting alone deep into my so called thoughts ..

i dont know  what induced it but probably out of no where I thought of dancing ..

( u dont know what it feels like when u want to but u just cant ) and then it hit me that i cant ..just yet..

It was an impeccable  timing for the thought because exactly at that moment , a sister of mine decided that it was her fav no. and she wanted me to tag along. so as the situation appeared itself  i decided that its better not to..( c'mon  i know that u just might be thinking that i should try but im pretty sure i wont look good fallen on a dance floor)

well thats that..

Been into thoughts for last 2 nights and cant yet decide ...

it so happens that i met many ppl during this so called vacation of mine.

i have met many ppl and im not bragging but most of them were girls..anyways ..

u see that fb is a form of connection and i chat a lot  (im the most free and unoccupied person :P )

anyways  so i dont know what i could have done to deserve such an ignorance but sometimes they appear to have seen the msg and dont reply

( at all ) but i still insist on .. (call me a pile on if u wish to :P) now .. that chain of events has lead to my insatiable desire to talk to her..

and since 2 days now im feeling weak and inability to control the hunger to talk to her..to listen to that sweet "hei" again 

but i guess i need to stay strong ...i know for sure that its just an infatuation  for the feeling is not so strong ..

but yet i am a blind optimist ..plenty of fish in the sea .. :P

only one is supposed to catch me  :P

dont know why i dont write those rhyming lines in my notes any more

but i know who is a reason someone who pushed me to change my ideas :P