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Expectations

a year back (almost) ...
i had a girl who was barely a "hi" and "hello" friend
became a close friend.now we used to to meet everytym we were both in delhi
and have " maggi and iced tea " together.and we spent many a fun evenings together ...
i helped her get a boyfriend that she liked before ... and we used to chat ..
talk abt college and the work, the friends and the teachers .
.now recently since the accident, i asked her once if she wanted to meet and 
she said yea..
but, unfortunately i couldnt for i had to c my brother and my mom off...
later on she didnt reply of chats on fb so i thought she might be busy..and 
i let it be ..
but recently i c her online and every time i go through the online list and i c her there..
something inside me wants me to ask " hey lets meet up" and i know im being the 
arrogant ,egoistic maniac..
but i dont wish to b a pile on in any way..
and thus i choose to leave her alone ...

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