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First Love

Today i woke up relatively early ..its quiet a hardship today ..
stuck with a dilemma..
saw the sun come up today ..  
lost into a shallow thought ... the question "do i love her ?" was storming through my mind.
remember how a stupid "love song" shows up and u are its hero alongside the one you love.
well .. in my case it was a match like that of tennis  between 2 ..
it was an unfair match though ... funny she still survives in my thoughts..
been over a year  and yet i think of her, its pathetic coz even in the early times a never expected her to b mine ..
just wished for her happiness..

well i wish to jump into my present now .. yesterday only she asked me and i subtly declined coz of the sole reason
to keep her at a distance ..couldnt  sustain hurting her ..guess to keep somethings safe you wish to keep em away right..
man .. love comes from the least expected places ..
couldnt comprehend the fact that she loves me.. but hope she finds another..
for i know that i am the most selfish person i have known ..
"past is always lovely becoz we know what happened there may it be good or may it be bad..but future is unpredictable and thus one is to live it and love it .. coz human life is too short for being sad" 

i know for sure that i love her too.. i mean how often do you find love when its so sweet 
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