Chronicles of an Extraordinary Fool

heyo people... hows it hangin ??  well i wanted to write today in particular because a thought has struck my mind and he wants out. so here goes. Today i have had an epiphany (for those who dont know what an epiphany is .. go check the dictionary) so the sudden realization of the great truth was that today alone i felt sad. Now i know i shouldn't have felt so because i was the one pushing her away trying to save her the trouble of I, ME and MYSELF but, i felt as if no air in my lungs and no light was caught by my eyes, because the one thing i looked for was nowhere to be found. You must think what a messed up guy, cant he make up his mind.. but let me assure you im not on the verge of total insanity yet. i should be happy that i finally got what i wished for but here i am still sulking, you know what i think i cared when she talked to me, when she used to tell me about her day, when she used to flick away those hair only so i could see her face. Well thats that, I know now that no...

Heyo everyone,                      today i got to sleep 10 minutes more than usual time. YAY!!!!!  Well, Its another story entirely that it delayed my overall schedule but, it was fun in the monotonous routine. So,  got to my college at my usual time (which is 40 minutes before the college starts #drag) and was sitting in my college's cafeteria when, a thought struck my mind( there has been a lot of that going around). you all might know how i was supposedly in love then, thought it to be just a #FalseAlarm well,as it turns out "It was and It wasnt". Dubious ?? let me explain.. you might know how first love feels like..? well if you dont then take this as only a foot note or something you can learn something from.                  That feeling of first love is downright awesome!!! Its like watching ripples in a calm lake, listening to birds chirp their songs, the sun tryin...

Happy today- something is different well,then comes the "Personal Influence Theory" into play . I just remembered that, yesterday evening it was 2 friends teasing me about Her. I guess the influence of their meaningless and vain chatter has set in. Since morning i am listening to the heart warming, life affirming and stupid love songs, to be honest its just one in particular "Ishq Bulava" an OST of Bollywood movie "Hasee Toh Phasee". A movie in which the leading hero falls for his fiancee's sister who was banished from the family. So I guess the concept of 'Forbidden Love' is in motion here. Trust me im not the kind to fight even for my limitations. It so happened during the class that our lecturer was teaching and I out of habit of being an insufferable know it all completed his sentence with a peculiar word "BELOVED" while it was to be friends and colleagues (i so wanted to shoot myself that i uttered something and that too under t...