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Hopeless Longings

Hey people,
How have you been??
I was sitting in my class when a though hit me, why do I come to college so.. (Hi Karan, he just walked in, this one is my batchmate, good guy, intellectual and I'm gonna go back don't worry) early in the morning and then the answer came to me, to get a set of notes photocopied (that's for today). So, I walked to the store inside campus and saw it filled with students, wasn't that my initial thought that, no one will be in college so the shop might be empty, but then again I knew its filled in the mornings.
          This brought upon the thought of hopeless longings,  waiting  for things that you just know won't happen. You must have a good idea how fate intervenes in stuff, then there is the Murphy's law ( Murphy was a philosopher who stated that when you want something to succeed it usually fails you, FYI these are not his exact words). So, this one girl whom I haven't met in 4 years now tells me one fine morning that she got an internship and she won't tell me , its a surprise, I wanted to meet her so bad that I got all set to go out to meet her when she tells  me that she has arrived. The excitement was beyond my containment and I had a smile on my face for an entirety of 8 mins(because fb messenger tells you the time of the last message) when it hit me, will she be coming to Delhi!!
          I was working with this firm some time back and I met an actor over there, very humble to talk to and courteous. I greeted him out of sheer fascination and got to talking about how things are working in the industry he explained a bit to me and then told me that he would contact me and stay in touch, I got him and sent a friend request to him through fb . well you see how people don't have time for people, neither did he.
          So, coming back to the initial one, the girl messages me after 4 days telling me she is in Vietnam and I laughed so much, funny things these 'Hopeless longings' they make you weak and I'll trade my feelings  for logic any day.
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